When we slept together I cried,
You said it would be beautiful but you lied,
You selfishly took what I offered gladly,
Now your greedy act has left me broken badly,
In your passionless race to get to your end,
I’ve become broken and now need to be mend,
Why did you ever bother coming my way,
When you could not even bother learning how to play,
Broken and hurt because of you,
Clearly those words of love were untrue.
Ok so I am really going to talk about this, oh yes I am. Have you ever thought that you have met the most wonderful guy, and all was going well so you decide to trust him? You decide to go the extra with him, because he is saying all the things you just need to hear, and so desperately want to believe. He plans a date night and you plan the after the date night, with high hopes as it has been so long that someone made you feel wonderful and loved.
The shock comes when this guy does not even consider how you feel, but he only considers how he feels and practically uses you, and then says good bye. Even as you lay crying he gets dressed and goes his merry way. You can’t really blame him because you know that you offered and he accepted. But somehow that feeling of shame and dirt finds a way to attach itself to you.
Great, just great, now you are conflicted; but guess what, there is no greater cure than self-love, love yourself in-spite of it all, and in-spite of a selfish greedy lover, well not lover but fool. You don’t have to be ashamed because of what someone did to you, or how they acted selfishly towards you. Neither be ashamed because your expectations were shattered, or that your judgment seemed off. The truth is your judgment was not off, the deceiver came your way and did what he does best; deceive.
So be strong and forgive yourself. Grow from this and learn from it. Every trouble that comes your way makes you stronger. Love yourself and believe in love.
“I believe in love and all it stands for.” MayahRose🌹